6.14.2017

a poem: i just don't know

you read me Shakespeare
lulling me to sleep
as you whispered
a tale of forbidden love 
leading to as much happiness
as it did destruction 

you smiled at me 
blushing red 
as you handed me 
little notes
that you wrote on scraps
of the homework from the day before

you laughed 
hair flopping onto your
forehead as 
you poked me playfully on the cheek
trying to make me smile
when you saw that i was upset

you talked
to me on the phone 
all night about nonsensical, unimportant things
both of knowing that it was late
and that we needed go to sleep
but neither of us willing to hang up

you were so sweet
and kind
and funny
and quirky
and brave
and i don't know what made you change

because now you read me Shakespeare
and those tales of 
tragic love that i thought were foolish
that i thought were unrealistic
are now stories
that i find myself living through every day

because now you smile at me
menacingly
as you belittle me
and berate me
for things that i didn't even
used to think were wrong with me 

because now you laugh
when you shove me and slap me and hit me
when i do something to upset you
playing it off as a joke
even though we both know
that it isn't

because now you spend hours
apologizing to me 
a countless number times
over and over again
for the same things
yet never making an effort to change

i don't know if you'll ever
be who you used
to be again
or if i'll still be waiting for you to change
tomorrow
and the tomorrow after that

i don't know what to do
whether to stay or to go
when i see 
a ghost of the person 
you used to be
on your face

and i don't know what happened
i don't know what went wrong
to make something 
so special
turn into
this

i just don't know 
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Hey everyone! The poem I wrote above is inspired by some books/tv shows and is meant to depict an abusive relationship. I just want to say that if you are in a abusive relationship, you are not to blame. You deserve to be treated with respect and you deserve to be safe and happy. Others say it much better than I do, so if you want to be better informed about this topic, or if you need help, check out this, this, this, and this.


-Jolly

6.11.2017

Thoughts/Review: hopeless fountain kingdom by Halsey

Hey everyone! Halsey's new album, hopeless fountain kingdom, came out about a week ago and I wanted to share my thoughts on it, track by track. When I heard Now Or Never a couple of weeks ago I was kind of wary about this album because I wasn't a huge fan of that particular song. But I ended up really loving hopeless fountain kingdom. It definitely gives out different vibes than Halsey's last album, Badlands, did, but I'm completely okay with that. I actually think it's really interesting to see the style of any artist change over time. Anyway, great job and so much gratitude to Halsey for all the time that she spent on this album!




Track 1- The Prologue 

This track is more of an introduction to the album than a song. It starts with the prologue of Romeo and Juliet (which is honestly so cool) and sets up the theme of the album perfectly: At least, from what I understand, Hopeless Fountain Kingdom seems to be a place that is seemingly perfect..But once you look deeper, it's really not.

I am a child of a money hungry, prideful country
Grass is green and it's always sunny 

Track 2- 100 Letters

Honestly, the lyrics of this song are just brilliant. They're just so beautiful and metaphorical. Anyway, to me, this track seems to be about an unhealthy or even abusive relationship and how Halsey left it.

You wrote a 100 letters just for me
And I find them in my closet, in the pockets of my jeans

Track 3- Eyes Closed

With this song, I personally prefer the stripped version to the studio recorded one. Her vocals in this song are just SO AMAZING. The tracks on hopeless fountain kingdom tell a story, and this track is such a great follow up to a 100 Letters.

But you've been replaced

I'm face to face with someone new

Track 4- Heaven in Hiding

Okay, so this is my favorite track on the entire album. The first time I listened through the album (yes, I've lost count of the number of times I've replayed this album), even though this was only the fourth track out of 16, I just knew that this would be my favorite song. If you are going to listen to only one song on this album, listen to this one! The beat and the tune and the lyrics..IT'S ALL TOO GOOD.

And when you start to feel the rush
A crimson headache,  aching blush

Track 5- Alone

So, right when this song starts it gives off really jazzy vibes which is just so interesting and different from Halsey's other songs! And there's just something so raw about this track, how it expresses the feeling of being alone even when you're surrounded by people. Overall, I really liked this track.

But if you ask why I'm distant
Oh I'm running away

Track 6- Now or Never
I feel pretty meh about this track. I'm honestly not a big fan of the tune or the lyrics. It's not a bad song, but I'm just not feeling it with this one.

Trying to talk to wall
But you could never tear it down for me, yeah

Track 7- Sorry

This is also one of my favorites on the album! It such a powerful song and it gives me so many emotions. The lyrics are so relatable and I love the piano that's being played in the background. JUST GO LISTEN TO IT!

Cause sometimes I can treat the people
That I love like jewelry 

Track 8- Good Mourning
This one isn't really a song..it's more of a kind of intermission, I guess. It gives out a really creepy vibe and I love it so much! I also love the references to Romeo and Juliet in it.

They told me once, "Don't trust the moon. She's always changing."
The shores bend and break for her

Track 9- Lie ft. Quavo

This song is definitely really different from Halsey's other music..and I did really like it, until Quavo's   part. I just think that it would have been better if Halsey just went solo for this song. Also, this song is really short for some reason. It's just a little over two minutes long.

Got no one to lie to 
There's no need to lie no more

Track 10- Walls Could Talk

This track reminds me of the 90s and early 2000s. BASICALLY, BRITNEY SPEARS VIBES. Again, it's such a good track, but I wish that it was longer. This one is only 1 minute and 41 seconds long, which is way too short.

Been about three days and I'm coming back
I'm about four minutes from a heart attack

Track 11- Bad at Love
This song gives me chills. I love the lgbtq representation in it! Critics kept saying that Halsey didn't have any queer representation in her songs and THEN THIS SONG HAPPENED. In this song, Halsey sings about loving boys and girls, which I think is so amazing because we really do need more lgbtq representation in music. 

But I never got the chance to make her mine
Because she fell in love with thin white lines

Track 12- Don't Play
This song is basically a diss track to all the haters, and IT'S SO EMPOWERING. I just love this one so much!

I'm moving on, I'm getting paid
I'm on my own, I had some space to deal with it
And

Track 13- Strangers ft. Lauren Jaurengui
YASSS ANOTHER LGBTQ SONG. I feel like this track is the type of song that could definitely be played on the mainstream radio which is great because everyone needs to hear this one! It tells a story of lesbian and bisexual women in love, a story that is ignored in most mainstream media. I didn't know who Lauren was before listening to this track, but her voice is so beautiful and she sounds superb with Halsey. 

She doesn't look me in the eyes anymore
Too scared of what she'll see, somebody holding ,e

Track 14- Angel on Fire
This track is one of my favorites on the entire album. So many people suffer from anxiety, from depression, from low self-esteem.Yet these peoples' stories are rarely told in songs and albums. But this song does tell those stories, and it tells them in a such a raw, honest, beautiful way.

Now it's my own anxiety
That makes the conversations hard

Track 15- Devil in Me
This song is probably going to be stuck in my head for the next year. Everything about this song is sensational...The lyrics, the tune, and the beat. 

And I went tumbling down trying to reach your high
But I scream too loud if I speak my mind

Track 16- Hopeless ft. Cashmere Cat
This one also gives me chills. It has such a melancholic feeling to it, and it just beautifuly represents the sorrowful fate of lovers. The background vocals really add so much to this song and really help convey it's despondent mood. 

And so I must be better than I think it is
Give me those eyes, it's easy to forgive



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If you haven't listened to hopeless fountain kingdom, I hope that you do soon, because it really is such an amazing album. If you have listened to it, what's your favorite song on the album? Tell me in the comments!

-Jolly

6.07.2017

Summer Break Goals

Hey, everyone! I don't really have anything in specific that I'm doing this summer, so I decided to set some goals for myself of things that I want to do! I'll check back at the end of summer to see how I did.


Write Something

I definitely want to write SOMETHING this summer. Whether it be a novel, poems, short stories, flash fiction, or fan fiction, I know that I definitely want to take some time to just write.

I wrote a novel February of this year..And it's basically 57,000 words of messiness. I went into it without plotting anything at all and without even the intention to write a novel. I've been toying with an idea for a novel in my mind, and I might try plotting it out and then writing it this summer. I'm not a hundred percent sure I'll do it, but if the idea continues to intrigue me, I'll definitely give it a try.

Watch A Couple of Shows
Again, I'm not completely sure what shows I would like to watch this summer, but I definitely want to take some time to just relax. I'm not that good with following through with the shows that I start. I never used to do this, but for the past couple of months, I've been doing this thing where I watch the first three episodes of a show in one sitting, and then watch the rest of the episodes at a slow pace of one a month, until I eventually stop watching it. Anyway, this summer I'd really like to actually finish something!

I've been watching the k-drama, The Heirs, so I definitely want to finish that. Other k-dramas that I've heard of that I'm considering watching are Playful Kiss, Boys Over Flowers, and Coffee Prince. I'm also currently re-watching Degrassi: The Next Generation. And by re-watching, I mean, using it as background noise when I do random other activities, like drawing and wasting away time on the internet. So yeah, I'll probably continue watching that over the summer, too.

Harvard Lectures

Okay, so a couple of days ago, I randomly started watching a Harvard lecture: the first lecture in the Justice course in Harvard. It was actually a really interesting lecture, and I really enjoyed watching it. There are 24 lectures available online in total, so I'm looking forward to watching those this summer.

Practice French

Currently, I'm learning French at school. Last summer, I used Rosetta Stone to practice French over the summer, and I want to do the same thing this year. I want to just make sure that I take a few minutes every day to using the program.

Art 

Recently, I started drawing a little. I've never been to an art class, so I don't know any techniques, but I do want to learn. So that's why I signed up for art classes. I start in two weeks. I hope that I'll have fun over the summer and learn a lot of new things.

Coding

I also signed up for coding classes this summer. I don't really have any previous experience with coding, so all of this is entirely new to me. I start this week, and I'm excited to see how it goes.

Reading 

I read a lot of books over the school year. I definitely want to read a lot over the summer, too, but I also want to make sure I'm spending time on things other than reading. This summer, I'd like to read a couple of classics (I want to try The Once and Future King, Wuthering Heights, and Romeo and Juliet), some newly released books, and some fan fiction!

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What are your plans for this summer? Do you have any summer goals? 


6.03.2017

Recent Obsessions

Hey, everyone!

I've been loving a lot of different things recently and I wanted to talk about some of my "obsessions."  I guess that this could sort of be considered as a "favorite's post." It's my first time doing something like this and I'm excited to see how it goes. 

hopeless fountain kingdom- Halsey
Yesterday, Halsey dropped her new album, "hopeless fountain kingdom." It's a little different from her last album, which I actually don't mind at all because I like to see styles of artists change over time. I've been listening to it a lot (I'm listening to it right now) and IT JUST HAS SO MANY AMAZING SONGS. 

 

I'll be posting an album review soon, so look out for that!


We Don't Talk Anymore- Cover By Jungkook and Jimin (from BTS)


Okay, so BTS (a k-pop group) in general is a huge obsession of mine, but I have way too many things to say about them (most of which no one will probably understand), so I'm just focusing on this cover that was released yesterday. I'm not the biggest fan of the original version of "We Don't Talk Anymore" sung by Charlie Puth, but I really do like this cover. Their voices just sound so beautiful and angelic, and it was so wonderful to hear Jimin covering an English song for the first time. Even if you aren't fan, I really suggest that you listen to the cover..It's really beautiful. I've been listening to it on repeat. 



K-Drama- The Heirs
I've seen so many people on the internet that are obsessed with k-dramas, so pretty recently, I gave one of the more popular ones a try. And even though The Heirs is cliched, predictable, and cringey..Even though it has a horrible soundtrack that is played at the most inopportune times, even though people stare at each other for way longer than necessary, even though some of the characters are beyond annoying..It's somehow still really entertaining and kind of addicting. 

Yeah, it's probably doesn't make sense why I'm still watching it when I have so many problems with it, BUT IT'S JUST SO INTERESTING. 

This is our MC in The Heirs. She's bad-ass half the time, and as for the other half...


.....she cries a lot. LIKE EVERY EPISODE. MULTIPLE TIMES. 


Drawing
I've gotten into drawing, recently. I've never been to an art classes, so I don't really know anything about technique, but I've having a lot of fun with sketching. I have no idea what I'm doing, but I'm enjoying doing it. 

Reading Fanfics
I hate when people say that "fanfic writers aren't real writers." And I don't like that people assume that all fan fiction is crappy. I've read quite a bit of fan fiction, and a lot of fanfics are better than a lot of books that are actually published. Writing is writing..whether it's fan fiction or not. 

With fan fiction, I especially love reading long fics. I think that's one of the amazing things about fan fiction: that a fanfic can be as short or as long as the writer would like it to, rather than in novels, where there is usually some kind of word count that it need to fit into. With longer fics, I love to really see character growth and get to read about those moments that wouldn't usually be included in novels. 

The longest fanfic that I've read to date is 286,990 words, which is equivalent to about four to five young adult novels. AND IT WAS AMAZING. 


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Are you obsessed with any of the same things I am? What are your recent obsessions? I would love to know! Tell me in the comments! 


-Jolly

5.31.2017

Little Things

I think that a lot of us are just rushing through our lives. We don't pay attention to those little things that happen to us every day. We dismiss them, take them for granted. But without them, our lives just wouldn't be the same. Those little things, that we never really seem to think about, those are the things that really shape our lives. Those are the things that make life beautiful. And I think that it's really important that we appreciate these things. That we just pause for a moment, and take a moment to smile because of all of the little things that we're blessed with in our lives.

So, anyway, I've made a list of a couple of the little moments and things in my life that I love and appreciate. I hope that my list will get you thinking about the little things in your life, and I hope that it makes you smile!



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1) Days when I have no homework
2) Being told that I smell good
3) Looking through photographs from my past
4) When I get home and exchange my school clothes for some comfier clothes
5) Falling asleep to the sound of the rain
6) Warm clothes from the dryer
7) Drinking a cold glass of water when I'm thirsty
8) When something I say makes someone else happy
9) Wearing fuzzy socks in the wintertime
10) Eating cold, fresh fruit
11) Winning an argument
12) When someone smiles at me
13) Random acts of kindness
14) The softness of cut grass
15) When I hear a song that I haven't heard in a while
16) Eating buttery popcorn
17) Soft blankets
18) Smelling a perfume or lotion that I love
19) Accidentally dropping something without damaging it at all
20) Seeing a funny license plate
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So, what are the little things in your life that you love? 
Tell me in the comments!

-Jolly 


5.27.2017

Tomorrow


Sometimes it can feel like you're in an endless loop, repeating the same kind of days over and over again. Days when you feel like you aren't getting anywhere with your life. Days filled with tears and sadness. With disappointment. With anger. 

When you were a kid, you never expected it to be like this. For each day to be just this hard to get through. You thought that it would be easy to get to where you wanted to be. You thought that at the age of 18, you would be graduating from high school, ready to go to some prestigious college. You thought that after college you'd easily land a high salary job. You'd live in a big house with some of your loved ones. 

Or maybe you thought that you would be a famous actor. Or have a couple published novels. Or be a prestigious piano player. Whatever your dreams were, you were certain that you'd reach them. You were sure that anything was possible. That you would be happy, and content, and everything would just be right.

But life isn't that simple. Life isn't a clear set straight path that we take to get from point a to point b. Life is this complicated, intertwined loop of memories, thoughts, and feelings. You're bound to fail once in a while. To make a couple of mistakes. To have to backtrack and retry a couple different things.

And that makes it so easy to get stuck. To get stuck in mundane days where nothing really seems to be happening. To get stuck in dark days, full of sorrow and pain. And you just desperately want it to stop. You desperately want tomorrow to be different from today, but you don't know if it ever will. 

And if this is you, if you feel like nothing is going right in your life, you just have to keep on going. You just have to keep on living through your days, and know that life isn't going to be like this forever. 

You have to keep yourself from keeping discouraged, and continue chasing your dreams, whatever they are. You have to take a deep breath, and be determined to take risks. Risks that will make tomorrow a better tomorrow. And if it fails, that's okay. You just need to keep on moving, keep on living. Keep on trying, keep on following your dreams. 

Above all, you need to have hope. Hope that tomorrow will be better than today. Hope that tomorrow, things will work out for you. Hope that tomorrow, you'll be happier. 

If you get yourself in the mindset that things are never going to get better for you, nothing ever will change. 

But, if you take control of your life, if you choose to not let failure stop you from chasing your dreams, if you have hope...Then, I promise that you'll get where you want to be. I promise that you'll be happier. And I promise that you'll have wonderful tomorrows. 

-Jolly

5.13.2017

Relax and Unwind: Little Things I Do to De-stress

Hey, everyone! Stress is something that a lot of people deal with frequently, including me. In these situations, it's important to know that you don't have to continue feeling this way and that there are things you can do to feel better. So, I've compiled a list of little things that I do when I'm stressed out (and that you can do, too!)



1. Listen To Relaxing Music 
There are plenty of amazing instrumental music soundtracks on YouTube. They always seem to have such a calming affect on me. 

Some that I like in particular are:
a) 3 Hours of Relaxing Music- "Beautiful Piano". This is basically a really beautiful, bright, positive sounding song, that is played on loop by a piano for three hours.
b) 1 Hour Ultimate BTS Piano Music.  This is a compilation of piano covers of the songs of the k-pop  group, BTS. If you're an ARMY (the fandom name for BTS), this won't succeed in calming you down, and will instead result in lots of fangirling and screaming of lyrics in mangled Korean. If you're not a fan of the group, you'll be fine, and it will definitely prove to be relaxing. Although, you really should check them out. Listen through their albums, watch an interview, or take a look at a music video. I PROMISE THAT THEY'RE AMAZING. *not so subtly pushes BTS on to readers

2. Journaling
I've been journaling consistently every day for a little more than a month now. It just really helps to get my thoughts written down on paper. I know that it can be hard for some people to keep up with journaling, so I recommend that you find a specific time and place to write every day so that it becomes part of your daily routine. 

3. Take A Shower + Moisturize
Taking a hot, relaxing shower on a stressful day is just such a relaxing experience. Using bath salts can really help with the de-stressing, too. Afterwards, MOISTURIZING IS KEY. There is nothing better than the feeling of having soft, nice smelling skin, on a stressful day. 

4. Watch Something Relaxing
Sometimes, you just need to bundle up under some soft blankets, and binge-watch some TV. In times of stress, I like watching sitcoms or "comfort shows." Some examples of shows that could work for you are Modern Family (my personal favorite), Friends, Gilmore Girls, a show from your childhood/past, etc. 

5. Take A Walk
It can be really nice to just get away from what's stressing me out for a little while and just go outside and enjoy nature. The fresh air and sunlight can really help clear my mind and give me time to reflect on my day. 

6. Breathing
Breathing is an instant fix for stress. My favorite breathing technique is to inhale for a count of four, hold your breath for a count of seven, and then exhale for a count of eight. Another one that might work for you is to inhale for a count of two, and then exhale for a count of two. Then inhale for a count of four, followed by an exhale for a count of four. You can continue to increase the time of your inhale and exhale until you begin to feel calm.

7. Read 
WHY IS THIS NOT HIGHER UP ON MY LIST? Anyway, reading is something that definitely helps me de-stress. It's just really nice to be able to escape into another world, where your problems don't even exist. Of course, even though reading can distract you from your own stress, it can introduce a whole new stress into your life about what will happen to the characters and the worlds in the books you're reading.

8. Spending Time With Loved Ones
When I'm stressed out or feeling down, spending time with my friends and family is one of the best things I can do. They give me a shoulder to lean on and someone to converse my problems to. They also never fail to brighten up my day, and distract me from whatever's bothering me. Sometimes, all you need to feel better is a hug from someone you care about. 

9. Take A Break
Lastly, I just want to say that if something is really stressing you out, it's okay to just take a break from it. There is nothing more important than your mental health and well-being. Know that it's okay to feel stressed out once in a while, but also make sure to always prioritize your mental health first. 

-Jolly 

5.06.2017

A Poem: We Heal


i think it's beautiful 
how it works

when we're broken
and can't find a way 
to put ourselves back together

when something shattered us beyond
our own capability of understanding
and we don't even know who we are anymore

when we don't know which road to take
to make everything okay again
or even if if we'll ever be okay at all

and somehow
we rise out of the depths
of our own grief

of our own poisoned minds
that whisper
deceptive words into our ears

the broken fragments of our souls
piece back together

our lips form smiles again
hope finds a place in our hearts

and it's a miracle in itself
how we're able to move past 
trauma and heartbreak

we'll never forget any of it
our pain will be cemented 
in a chapter of the story of our lives

but we'll move on from it
begin a new chapter

we're not completely okay yet
but we're getting there

we're healing 

-Jolly



4.08.2017

songs that you can't help but sing along to: a playlist



Mr. Brightside- The Killers
All Star- Smash Mouth 
Sweet Caroline- Neil Diamond 
Dog Days Are Over- Florence and the Machine
Hey There Delilah- Plain White T's
Sugar We're Goin' Down- Fall Out Boy
The Middle- Jimmy Eat World
Don't Stop Believing- Journey
Vegas Lights- Panic! At The Disco
Welcome to the Black Parade- My Chemical Romance 
Wonderwall- Oasis


-Jollygirl

4.01.2017

5 Books That You Should Read This Spring

I know that a lot of people go on vacations during spring and actually go outside and do things and meet people, but if you're like me then you probably end up staying home all break, cooped up in some corner of the house with a book in your hands. The fact that so many different books are released in spring doesn't really help the situation.

Of course, if you're like me, you also need to know what books to actually pick up, which is why I have a list of five books that are definitely worthwhile reads during spring. 


You might be unsure about what to read or maybe you're just not entirely convinced of the awesomeness of reading. Whatever it is, don't worry, these books are amazing! 



1. We Are Okay by Nina LaCour


Synopsis (From Goodreads)
 Marin hasn’t spoken to anyone from her old life since the day she left everything behind. No one knows the truth about those final weeks. Not even her best friend, Mabel. But even thousands of miles away from the California coast, at college in New York, Marin still feels the pull of the life and tragedy she’s tried to outrun. Now, months later, alone in an emptied dorm for winter break, Marin waits. Mabel is coming to visit, and Marin will be forced to face everything that’s been left unsaid and finally confront the loneliness that has made a home in her heart. 

What I Liked
  • Diversity!
  • The characters and their relationships were just so real. They seemed like people that you might meet in your own life and their relationship was so realistic. 
  • This book was sometimes funny, sometime joyful, sometimes sad, and other times just heartbreaking
  • The chapters of this book switch from the past to the present. I love when books are written like that as it really makes you want to keep on reading to figure out everything that happened in the character's life!
  • We Are Okay is a pretty short book, at just 234 pages, meaning that it's a quick read. (It's nice to read a short book once in a while.)

2. History Is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera


Synopsis (From Goodreads)
When Griffin’s first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. But now, the future he’s been imagining for himself has gone far off course.

To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffin’s downward spiral continues. He’s losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets he’s been keeping are tearing him apart.

If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life.

What I Liked
  • This book is emotional. Like, really emotional. I'm not really someone who cries a lot during books or movies but I still teared up several times while reading this. (And I full on cried for Adam Silvera's other novel, More Happy Than Not.
  •  Beautiful writing. Just beautiful. Also, this book alternated between the past and the present, too.
  • I really liked the portrayal of OCD in History Is All You Left Me. I don't know much about OCD, but I have read a lot of books that seem to misrepresent anxiety disorders, or have disorders "cured" by romance (bleh, I hate that trope), but this book didn't.
  •  ALL OF THE NERDY REFERENCES. 


 3. Allegedly by Tiffany D. Jackson


Synopsis (From Goodreads)
Mary B. Addison killed a baby.

Allegedly. She didn’t say much in that first interview with detectives, and the media filled in the only blanks that mattered: A white baby had died while under the care of a churchgoing black woman and her nine-year-old daughter. The public convicted Mary and the jury made it official. But did she do it? She wouldn’t say.

Mary survived six years in baby jail before being dumped in a group home. The house isn’t really “home”—no place where you fear for your life can be considered a home. Home is Ted, who she meets on assignment at a nursing home.

There wasn’t a point to setting the record straight before, but now she’s got Ted—and their unborn child—to think about. When the state threatens to take her baby, Mary must find the voice to fight her past. And her fate lies in the hands of the one person she distrusts the most: her Momma. No one knows the real Momma. But who really knows the real Mary?

What I Liked
  • IT'S MINDBLOWING. 
  • Unreliable Narrators
  • The writing is so addicting! Once you start reading this book you can't stop. It just immediately pulls you in!
  • It's a dark novel that's extremely thought provoking  
  • I don't know what else to say other than JUST READ IT



4. These Shallow Graves by Jennifer Donnelly 


Synopsis (From Goodreads)
Jo Montfort is beautiful and rich, and soon—like all the girls in her class—she’ll graduate from finishing school and be married off to a wealthy bachelor. Which is the last thing she wants. Jo secretly dreams of becoming a writer—a newspaper reporter like the trailblazing Nellie Bly.

Wild aspirations aside, Jo’s life seems perfect until tragedy strikes: her father is found dead. Charles Montfort accidentally shot himself while cleaning his revolver. One of New York City’s wealthiest men, he owned a newspaper and was partner in a massive shipping firm, and Jo knows he was far too smart to clean a loaded gun.

The more Jo uncovers about her father’s death, the more her suspicions grow. There are too many secrets. And they all seem to be buried in plain sight. Then she meets Eddie—a young, brash, infuriatingly handsome reporter at her father’s newspaper—and it becomes all too clear how much she stands to lose if she keeps searching for the truth. Only now it might be too late to stop.

The past never stays buried forever. Life is dirtier than Jo Montfort could ever have imagined, and the truth is the dirtiest part of all.


What I Liked


  • I love the main character, Jo! She starts out really naive, but her characters develops a lot throughout the book.
  • The murder mystery! It was really fun to try to pick out the clues and figure out what was happening while the characters were doing the same. 
  • THIEVES, JOURNALISTS, AND FORENSIC SCIENCE.
  • The secondary characters are great, too! Fay, Eddie, and Oscar are all really well developed and likable characters.
  • FEMALE FRIENDSHIP (we need more of this in YA)

5. Highly Illogical Behavior by John Corey Whaley


Synopsis (From Goodreads)
Sixteen-year-old Solomon is agoraphobic. He hasn’t left the house in three years, which is fine by him.

Ambitious Lisa desperately wants to get into the second-best psychology program for college (she’s being realistic). But is ambition alone enough to get her in?

Enter Lisa.

Determined to “fix” Sol, Lisa steps into his world, along with her charming boyfriend, Clark, and soon the three form an unexpected bond. But, as Lisa learns more about Sol and he and Clark grow closer and closer, the walls they’ve built around themselves start to collapse and their friendships threaten to do the same.

What I Liked
  • It's really nerdy! Solomon and Clark spend a lot of the book fanboying over Star Trek.
  • I love the focus on friendship! 
  • The synopsis is actually a little misleading. Though Lisa is trying to "cure" Sol, it's made very clear that what she is doing is completely wrong. 
  • Sol's family was so enjoyable to read about! A lot of YA books kind of just ignore the family of the different characters, but this one didn't!
  • I thought that Sol's agoraphobia was really well written.
  • Highly Illogical Behavior is also one of the few books that have made me cry 


So, there you go! Five amazing books that everyone should read! I hope that you actually do pick one of these up this spring and really enjoy it. 

-Jollygirl

3.04.2017

A Poem: Clay



you're the gifted sculptor
and he is your prized masterpiece
and you mold him like
you would clay
into the shape of your choosing

you shape away his faults
those little nicks and dents and quirks
that you think mar his face
and you leave what you think is beauty
in their place

it's hard for him to even care to dream
when his desires
are picked away
left to fall to the ground
remnants of aspirations and hope

but you try not to mind how he feels
because you know it's for the better
and you know that one day
he will be your pride and joy
and he will be admired by everyone

you ignore that his smile
grows a little smaller
with each passing day
and how he seems to wilt into himself
like a dying flower

one day your masterpiece is completed
the clay has hardened
and it stands
golden and bright
under the sun

you admire him
and invite everyone
you know
to come and see
what you have created

but your smiling face
soon turns uneasy
when you notice the droplets
of salty water
in his eyes 

and soon you are wailing
because at the touch of your hand 
on the cold statue
it shatters in front of everyone
breaking into a thousand little pieces


-Jollygirl