october 2017 - in which I rant about my english teacher + angst over nanowrimo

This month has been....interesting? I really love the aesthetics of this time of the year and I've basically just been basking in the autumn vibes. 

This is what happened this month! : 
» I low-key spent this entire month complaining about how boring school is
» There's this one teacher that all the students dislike
» She made a girl cry in class by forcing her to share a personal story 
» I was able to skip her class on Friday because of a dentist appointment   #sorrynotsorry
» guy who sits behind me in one class - *looks up "How To Stop Wasting Time" on wikihow*
   me - maybe you could stop wasting time if you could stop reading articles about not to waste time?
   him - I was trying to find articles that were ironic...
» I have a new found love for sweatshirts
» and leggings
» Still struggling with jeans tho
» me - *writes a bullet point*
   another guy - *freaks out* YOU HAVE TO CAPITALIZE. 
» I kind of forgot about picture day?? I was going to make a point to wear rags on that day (for the sole purpose of irritating my friends), but I dressed up nicely by accident? or at least, "you're kind of dressed up? I mean, you're dressed up for you," someone said to me. 
» Fried oreos are delicious and should be revered 
» STRANGER THINGS SEASON 2 CAME OUT ON FRIDAY and I am not okay. I'm currently on episode 7, and it's just so good? Please watch this show. 

» I'm in a horrible book slump
» So I kinda only read two books this month?
» I mean, I did read some fan fiction...
» *breathes* I'm definitely going to try to read more next month. I think that I need to focus on picking out books that I genuinely want to read + not forcing myself to read something that's doesn't interest me

» Moxie by Jennifer Mathieu - 4/5 Stars
   This is such an incredibly feminist book, and I felt so empowered while reading it. I think this is a   
   must read for anyone who is interested in the feminist movement. It brings up a lot of important 
   issues and I'm just so glad that a book like this is out there.
» Warcross by Marie Lu - 4/5 Stars
   I have a couple issues with some of the main characters in this book, but I really enjoyed reading 
   about the secondary characters. Warcross was such an interesting + fast - paced + entertaining book, it was pretty hard to put down. 
» am I the only one freaking out?
» just
» how do you even write asdlkj
» I am beyond excited for Nano, though. I've never actually participated in Nanowrimo (although I have done Camp Nano), but I've always loved seeing the rest of the blogosphere write nano themed posts + angst over writing, AND THIS YEAR I CAN FINALLY PARTICIPATE.
» I bought scrivener using a discount that I got from winning Camp Nano, and it's actually been really helpful when it comes to outlining.
» an excerpt of my notes about my novel: 
idk why i wrote this, pls don't judge me 
» I've seen writers making these really beautiful + aesthetic boards for their novels on pinterest..I tried it out, and it came out pretty meh, but it was definitely a good way to visualize setting + characters 

a board for my novel
a board for my main character 

» Anyway, I hope that those of you that are doing Nano have a really nice writing experience :) 

» Temporary Being shared her inktober artwork


How was your month? Are you planning on doing Nano? Do you have any new favorite reads? tell me in the comments :) 

- Jolly 


a rant about respecting other people's feelings

    Heyo, everyone. Today I want to really talk about something that’s been bugging me a lot lately, and that is the sheer disregard some people have for other’s opinions.

The beauty of this world is that we’re all different people, with different races, cultures, genders, sexualities, personalities, etc. We all grow up in different situations and we all encounter different experiences AND THESE THINGS MAKE US WHO WE ARE. Our past experiences help us form our opinions, ideas, and thoughts on things. 

A man isn’t going to have the same experience in life as a woman. Someone who is white is not going to have the same life experience as someone who is of a minority race. Someone who is heterosexual and cisgender isn’t going to have the same experiences as someone who is part of the lgbtq+ community. 

Of course we’re all going to have different perspectives on things! With our diverse backgrounds it’s absolutely impossible to agree on everything. It’s completely okay to disagree + have healthy discussions about difficult topics.

But what’s not okay? INVALIDATING SOMEONE’S OPINIONS AND FEELINGS. It’s okay if you don’t agree, but it’s not okay to have the mindset of “Yup, my opinions and thoughts are always right.” You can’t decide on how someone else should feel about something.

I’m being pretty vague, so I’m going to be a little more specific about exactly what I’m talking about (and it’s going to be tough, because topics like these are always hard to talk about…but that doesn’t meant that they don’t need to be discussed.)

Racism + Sexism + Homophobia are big issues in the world today, and I honestly think that if people were a little more understanding + tolerant + accepting, we could really make some progress. For example, if you’re in the (for lack of better words) “dominant” group,  and a minority is offended by something that is said/done, you have no right to tell them that they shouldn’t be feeling offended. While you may disagree, you need to also acknowledge that IT’S THEIR OWN FEELINGS, AND THAT THEIR OWN FEELINGS ARE VALID. You have to recognize your “privilege” and realize that while you definitely do have the right to your own opinion, you don’t have the same experiences as someone of a minority group would have. 

I’ve already said this, but I’ll say it again since it’s super important: IT’S OKAY TO DISAGREE. DISAGREEING + HAVING RESPECTFUL DISCUSSIONS = GOOD. But what’s not good? : Refusing to acknowledge, understand, or even think about someone else’s feelings and opinions. 

It’s not about shaming, and it’s not about being right or wrong, it’s about TRYING TO UNDERSTAND. It’s about really listening to what someone is saying…About trying to open yourself up to a new perspective, to maybe possibly learn from your mistakes + fix problematic behavior. 

i just had to include a p!atd gif, okay?

It’s taught to us from the minute we’re put in school: to respect each other’s opinions…But yet, no one seems to really do that.

But it really is important when it comes to tough topics like these…It’s important to get out of the mindset of thinking that you’re always right, and realize that there are seven billion other people on this planet, and that not all of them are going to agree with you.

And as for the other side of things, when someone does say/do something that you think is problematic, it’s important to not bash them for it, but instead, start a respectful, genuine conversation, to educate them + make them understand. Obviously not everyone is going to be open to hearing new perspectives (and these are the people that don't deserve respect, imo), but if they are willing, then you have a brilliant opportunity to educate someone :) 

All in all, this was a pretty ranty post…I have a lot to say, and I didn’t say all of it in this post, but I think that this is a great starting place to start a good discussion. Just, please, try to make an effort to really listen to and understand what other people are trying to say. That’s all <3. 

good luck on your journey of acceptance <3

How do you feel about our diverse backgrounds? What are your thoughts on respecting people's opinions + how to deal with problematic behavior? 


a necessary ramble: thoughts on blogging + the future

The last post I wrote on this blog was on July 8, 2017. I'm currently writing this three months later, on September 30. 

I think that this is possibly the longest hiatus that I've ever taken. It wasn't announced nor was it planned but I think that I really needed it. I started blogging as a way to express myself, absent of the expectations + awkwardness that sometimes come from socializing in real life. I really wanted to connect with other people through the blogosphere, to make friends and meet kindred spirits. 

And, to be honest...For a while now, blogging has felt more like an obligation than a fun hobby. Writing a post is something that I've had to grudgingly get myself to do..And even when I do take time to write a post, it feels pointless. I've really been struggling to find my "voice", the characteristics of my own writing that make it unique. I sometimes feel like I have to act a certain way to fit in with the blogosphere and even though I know that's not true, I can't help but sometimes feeling like my own voice isn't enough. And then there are other times when I worry over if I'm being genuine enough, if I'm really being the "real" me. On the internet, it seems like there are so many people who know exactly who they are, and while I know that this may not be entirely true, I can't help feeling bothered by my own lack of knowledge about "who I am." (Is this making sense? I'm sorry if it isn't, I'm just really trying to be honest.) 

Over the past few years, I haven't been writing very many posts, and I haven't been very enthusiastic about the posts that I actually have written. I've definitely met some really amazing people, but I haven't kept up as much communication with them as I would have liked to. 

After a few months of break, I do want to try again. I remember when blogging was something that I loved and I really do want to get that back. 

I guess that I kind of almost want a new start? I've been going by the name, Reflections of a Jolly Girl for the past few years, and I'm not a huge fan of that title, to be honest. I made a list of possible new blog names a couple of weeks ago. Serendipity wasn't on the list, but it just seemed right in the spur of the moment, so serendipity it is. I actually think the name relates well to what I want this blog to be, that is, a little "pocket of sunshine" in what can sometimes be a pretty gloomy world. 

I re-designed this blog as well. I didn't really think too much about it, I just went with the colors that felt right, and I'm pretty satisfied with how it turned out. 

From what I've written so far, it might seem like I'm not very enthusiastic about the blogosphere, but that's honestly not what I'm trying to say at all. I'm actually really excited about getting back into blogging again. The blogging community has so many great things to offer, it's truly an amazing experience. And I really do mean it when I say that I want to get better at maintaining friendships through the blogosphere. Email, text, comments, I really don't care, I'm just genuinely interested in getting to know all of you :) 

Anyway, that's it for this post. I really just needed to get some things off my chest....It just feels so nice to ramble, sometimes. 

All in all, I'm just really looking forward to continuing this little journey of a blog :) 

all the best,
Jolly (I'm going by just Jolly now hehe. Jollygirl just...I don't know, I feel like it's a pretty cringey name.)


You're Not Good Enough Book Tag

Hey everyone! I saw this tag around the blogosphere on Abigail's blog and on Ellie's blog. I wasn't tagged, but it seemed really fun so I decided to partake in it!

The rules are:

1) Put 30 book character names in a container.
2) Draw a pair of names for each question.
3) Use the pair to answer the question.

1) You only have one spot more spot on your spelling bee team. Who gets it? 
Cath Avery (Fangirl) vs. Penelope Bunce (Carry On) 

I think that both Cath and Penelope would be pretty good at spelling, considering that Cath is a writer and that Penelope is just incredibly smart. I'm going to have to go with Penelope, though. I think that she'd be more competitive and would really try to win it. 

2) Both characters want to kill you. Whom would you kill first to have a better chance of survival?
Isabelle Lightwood (The Mortal Instruments) vs. Frances (Radio Silence) 

Aww, but why do two of my favorite characters want to kill me? Anyways, this one's an easy one. Though I hate to have to do it, Isabelle. Isabelle has pretty much been trained all her life for the sole purpose of killing demons and I'm sure that she'd have no problem killing me, especially considering that 0% of me is athletic. Although, I have no idea how I would even be able to kill Isabelle in the first place. Let's just face it, if I was ever put in this situation, I would most certainly die. 

3) You're on the bachelor/bachelorette and down to two characters. Who gets your rose?
Celaena Sardothien (Throne of Glass) vs. Zahra (The Forbidden Wish) 

Zahra would definitely get my rose. I adore both of these characters, but Celaena just intimidates me way too much. With Celaena, I feel like there's a 50% chance that we would have so much fun and a 50% chance that I'd end up dead. 

4) You've been chosen for the Hunger Games. Who's most likely to volunteer in your place?
Magnus Bane (The Mortal Instruments) vs. Noah Sweetvine (I'll Give You the Sun) 

I think that both Magnus and Noah would sacrifice themselves for someone they really care about. But for someone who they don't really know very well? I don't really think either of the two would volunteer. But maybe Magnus would, as he would most definitely win if he entered the Hunger Games. 

5) You're stranded on an island and must engage in cannibalism to survive. Whom do you eat?
Lara Jean (To All the Boys I've Loved Before) vs. Yeva (Hunted) 

But I don't want to eat anyone? Especially not these two? But if I had to, definitely Lara Jean. I don't really think that Lara Jean would have any skills that would help out on the island, while Yeva could actually hunt for food to eat. I don't have any skills that would help out on a stranded island either, though, so maybe Lara Jean and Yeva would team up and eat me. 

6) You're the next Marvel superhero (with your own TV show, of course.) Who's your sidekick?
Ladislav Dragwyla (And I Darken) vs. Carswell Thorne (The Lunar Chronicles) 

BOTH OF THESE PEOPLE WOULD BE AMAZING TO HAVE. But I'm going to have to go with Thorne. Lara would be such a good side kick, but I just don't really think she fits into that role. She's definitely a leading woman, and she'd probably kill me so that she could be one. Besides, I think that Thorne would be an amazing person to have beside me when I'm fighting crime and aliens and all that other stuff that superheroes allegedly fight (yeah, I don't really watch Marvel movies/shows.) Thorne is so witty and funny and he brings some amazing skills to the table, too. 

7) You're a manager of an avocado company. Whom would you fire for poor communication skills. 
Inej Ghafa (Six of Crows) vs. Tyrannus Basilton Grimm - Pitch (Carry On)

I'd probably end up firing Baz for communication skills. I feel like he'd get irritated and angry with customers. I don't really think that Inej has great communication skills either, but she would at least be polite. 

8) You'e just finished a book in which your favorite character dies. Which of these two characters is most likely to comfort you?
Park (Eleanor and Park) vs. Christian Ozera (Vampire Academy) 

I think Park would really be comforting about something like this. I don't really think that Christian would understand the situation and he'd probably be scared off by my distress. 

9) Ugh, it's high school. Who would most likely be part of the popular clique?
Miles (Made You Up) vs. Linh Cinder (The Lunar Chronicles) 

Uhhh, I don't think that either of these two would be part of the popular clique, though? Like, Miles is that person who's really intimidating that everyone is low-key scared of, but he's not popular. And if Cinder were in high school, I don't think she'd be popular either. I feel like she would have her own little group of misfits. So..neither of them?

But that's not an acceptable answer, right? So, I guess..Cinder? I mean, at least, if Cinder was a "princess" in high school, then I'd assume that she'd be sort of popular?? 

10) The day has arrived. You're finally a year older! Who would have the nerve to forget your birthday?
Luna Lovegood (Harry Potter) vs. Skye Penderwick (the Penderwicks)

Both Skye and Luna might forget my birthday, but I think that Luna would be more likely to. I'm sure that Luna would be such a fun person to celebrate my birthday with, though! 

11) You've just found and upcoming YouTube star! Whom is it more likely to be?
Ignifex (Cruel Beauty) vs. Simon Spier (Simon vs. The Homo Sapiens Agenda) 

Definitely, Simon. He just has that exuberant, infectious type of personality that everyone loves. He's adorable and funny and I'm sure that he'd make a great youtube star. Ignifex is pretty charming, too, but in a scary kind of way. If Ignifex did make a youtube channel though, I'm pretty sure that there would be tons of fangirls and fanboys freaking out over him. 

12) Sleepover time! Unfortunately, you can only invite one person. Who would it be?
Matthias Helvar (Six of Crows) vs. Kit Rook (The Dark Artifices) 

Ummm, I'm not sure if either of these two would really even like to be invited to a sleepover. I really like both characters, but Matthias is really intimidating, so probably Kit. Kit is kind of intimidating too, but he's a big softie on the inside. I actually think a sleepover with Kit would be really fun. We'd probably stay up all night going on different adventures. 

13) Bam, you're pregnant. Who's the father/mother?
James Carstairs (The Infernal Devices) vs. Radu Dragwyla (And I Darken) 

I honestly think that both Jem and Radu would be good parents. They're both kind, attentive, and patient. But..I would have to say Jem. After all, Radu has a lot on his plate. I don't think he'd be able to handle being a parent. (Honestly, Jem has a lot of things to do, too, but like, his main story is over? Because TID ended a couple of years ago. But with Radu, I have to wait until the third book of the Conqueror's Saga to figure out what happens to him. *prays for a happy ending*) 

14) You've just written a super important text. Who would see it and not reply?
Molly Peskin - Suso (The Upside of Unrequited) vs. Neville Longbottom (Harry Potter) 

Definitely Neville! We already know that he has trouble remembering things, so I think that there's a large chance that he would forget. 

15) You've just woken up and it's time for breakfast. You're mom's been replaced by whom? 

Rosemarie Hathaway (Vampire Academy) vs. Dante Quintana (Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe) 

Hopefully Dante...I don't think that Rose would make a very good parent. And besides, if Dante was my parent, maybe Ari could be my other parent? (Be still my shipper heart.) 

That was really fun! Tell me what you think: Do you agree with my answers, or would you choose differently? 

- Jolly 


Recently: June 2017

Hey everyone! It's been a while since a life update, so I'm going to share a little about what I've been doing this past June! 


- Read Now I Rise by Kiersten White and then literally spent the next hour pacing around the room thinking about it 
- Just wanting my smol and precious characters to be happy (ahem..Radu from Now I Rise.)
- Agonizing over the fact that the sequel to Now I Rise will be released in a year 
- Attempting to read the Percy Jackson series before reading Heroes of Olympus, which was a series that I really did like years ago, but never ended up finishing
- In the tiniest reading slump


- K-pop, k-pop, and more k-pop
                          - BTS (they're adorable as usual) 
                          - Blackpink (the only girl group that I've found that I really like) 
                          - Big Bang (listening through their old albums)
                          - NCT, Seventeen, GOT7, etc. (just exploring)
- Lorde's new album, Melodrama
- Acoustic covers (I've been putting on acoustic cover compilations once in a while when I read.) 


- Resolving to plot my Nano novel
- Successfully creating a basic plot and character profiles
- Attempting to plot it out scene by scene and miserably failing
- It's just really hard for me to plot in that much detail, I guess
- So I'm basically doing something in between plotting and pantsing
- Also, today is the first day of Camp Nano 


- Art classes
- Shamelessly wasting my time on the tumblr (you can find me here..but I'm warning you: I have a BTS fanblog..proceed with caution XD) 
- Reading Now I Rise (it was a painful read but in the best way possible) 


- Coding. The first few classes I went to I was like meh, but now that I sort of understand what's happening, I'm enjoying its a lot more.
- Trying to actually sort of get better at speaking my mother tongue  
- About philosophers (and getting a serious existential crisis from learning about their beliefs) 
- That it's not worth your time to worry about things that don't need to be worried about 


- Bon Voyage! It's basically these series of episodes chronicling BTS's adventures in Hawaii .
- Degrassi TNG. I'm just re-watching this..and I mostly just put it on in the "background" as I'm doing various other activities..On that subject though, Degrassi Next Class season 4 is coming out in a couple of days..which is cool.
- Harvard lectures (these lecture are where I'm getting my existential crisis from) 

- Jolly 


a poem: i just don't know

you read me Shakespeare
lulling me to sleep
as you whispered
a tale of forbidden love 
leading to as much happiness
as it did destruction 

you smiled at me 
blushing red 
as you handed me 
little notes
that you wrote on scraps
of the homework from the day before

you laughed 
hair flopping onto your
forehead as 
you poked me playfully on the cheek
trying to make me smile
when you saw that i was upset

you talked
to me on the phone 
all night about nonsensical, unimportant things
both of knowing that it was late
and that we needed go to sleep
but neither of us willing to hang up

you were so sweet
and kind
and funny
and quirky
and brave
and i don't know what made you change

because now you read me Shakespeare
and those tales of 
tragic love that i thought were foolish
that i thought were unrealistic
are now stories
that i find myself living through every day

because now you smile at me
as you belittle me
and berate me
for things that i didn't even
used to think were wrong with me 

because now you laugh
when you shove me and slap me and hit me
when i do something to upset you
playing it off as a joke
even though we both know
that it isn't

because now you spend hours
apologizing to me 
a countless number times
over and over again
for the same things
yet never making an effort to change

i don't know if you'll ever
be who you used
to be again
or if i'll still be waiting for you to change
and the tomorrow after that

i don't know what to do
whether to stay or to go
when i see 
a ghost of the person 
you used to be
on your face

and i don't know what happened
i don't know what went wrong
to make something 
so special
turn into

i just don't know 

Hey everyone! The poem I wrote above is inspired by some books/tv shows and is meant to depict an abusive relationship. I just want to say that if you are in a abusive relationship, you are not to blame. You deserve to be treated with respect and you deserve to be safe and happy. Others say it much better than I do, so if you want to be better informed about this topic, or if you need help, check out this, this, this, and this.



Thoughts/Review: hopeless fountain kingdom by Halsey

Hey everyone! Halsey's new album, hopeless fountain kingdom, came out about a week ago and I wanted to share my thoughts on it, track by track. When I heard Now Or Never a couple of weeks ago I was kind of wary about this album because I wasn't a huge fan of that particular song. But I ended up really loving hopeless fountain kingdom. It definitely gives out different vibes than Halsey's last album, Badlands, did, but I'm completely okay with that. I actually think it's really interesting to see the style of any artist change over time. Anyway, great job and so much gratitude to Halsey for all the time that she spent on this album!

Track 1- The Prologue 

This track is more of an introduction to the album than a song. It starts with the prologue of Romeo and Juliet (which is honestly so cool) and sets up the theme of the album perfectly: At least, from what I understand, Hopeless Fountain Kingdom seems to be a place that is seemingly perfect..But once you look deeper, it's really not.

I am a child of a money hungry, prideful country
Grass is green and it's always sunny 

Track 2- 100 Letters

Honestly, the lyrics of this song are just brilliant. They're just so beautiful and metaphorical. Anyway, to me, this track seems to be about an unhealthy or even abusive relationship and how Halsey left it.

You wrote a 100 letters just for me
And I find them in my closet, in the pockets of my jeans

Track 3- Eyes Closed

With this song, I personally prefer the stripped version to the studio recorded one. Her vocals in this song are just SO AMAZING. The tracks on hopeless fountain kingdom tell a story, and this track is such a great follow up to a 100 Letters.

But you've been replaced

I'm face to face with someone new

Track 4- Heaven in Hiding

Okay, so this is my favorite track on the entire album. The first time I listened through the album (yes, I've lost count of the number of times I've replayed this album), even though this was only the fourth track out of 16, I just knew that this would be my favorite song. If you are going to listen to only one song on this album, listen to this one! The beat and the tune and the lyrics..IT'S ALL TOO GOOD.

And when you start to feel the rush
A crimson headache,  aching blush

Track 5- Alone

So, right when this song starts it gives off really jazzy vibes which is just so interesting and different from Halsey's other songs! And there's just something so raw about this track, how it expresses the feeling of being alone even when you're surrounded by people. Overall, I really liked this track.

But if you ask why I'm distant
Oh I'm running away

Track 6- Now or Never
I feel pretty meh about this track. I'm honestly not a big fan of the tune or the lyrics. It's not a bad song, but I'm just not feeling it with this one.

Trying to talk to wall
But you could never tear it down for me, yeah

Track 7- Sorry

This is also one of my favorites on the album! It such a powerful song and it gives me so many emotions. The lyrics are so relatable and I love the piano that's being played in the background. JUST GO LISTEN TO IT!

Cause sometimes I can treat the people
That I love like jewelry 

Track 8- Good Mourning
This one isn't really a song..it's more of a kind of intermission, I guess. It gives out a really creepy vibe and I love it so much! I also love the references to Romeo and Juliet in it.

They told me once, "Don't trust the moon. She's always changing."
The shores bend and break for her

Track 9- Lie ft. Quavo

This song is definitely really different from Halsey's other music..and I did really like it, until Quavo's   part. I just think that it would have been better if Halsey just went solo for this song. Also, this song is really short for some reason. It's just a little over two minutes long.

Got no one to lie to 
There's no need to lie no more

Track 10- Walls Could Talk

This track reminds me of the 90s and early 2000s. BASICALLY, BRITNEY SPEARS VIBES. Again, it's such a good track, but I wish that it was longer. This one is only 1 minute and 41 seconds long, which is way too short.

Been about three days and I'm coming back
I'm about four minutes from a heart attack

Track 11- Bad at Love
This song gives me chills. I love the lgbtq representation in it! Critics kept saying that Halsey didn't have any queer representation in her songs and THEN THIS SONG HAPPENED. In this song, Halsey sings about loving boys and girls, which I think is so amazing because we really do need more lgbtq representation in music. 

But I never got the chance to make her mine
Because she fell in love with thin white lines

Track 12- Don't Play
This song is basically a diss track to all the haters, and IT'S SO EMPOWERING. I just love this one so much!

I'm moving on, I'm getting paid
I'm on my own, I had some space to deal with it

Track 13- Strangers ft. Lauren Jaurengui
YASSS ANOTHER LGBTQ SONG. I feel like this track is the type of song that could definitely be played on the mainstream radio which is great because everyone needs to hear this one! It tells a story of lesbian and bisexual women in love, a story that is ignored in most mainstream media. I didn't know who Lauren was before listening to this track, but her voice is so beautiful and she sounds superb with Halsey. 

She doesn't look me in the eyes anymore
Too scared of what she'll see, somebody holding ,e

Track 14- Angel on Fire
This track is one of my favorites on the entire album. So many people suffer from anxiety, from depression, from low self-esteem.Yet these peoples' stories are rarely told in songs and albums. But this song does tell those stories, and it tells them in a such a raw, honest, beautiful way.

Now it's my own anxiety
That makes the conversations hard

Track 15- Devil in Me
This song is probably going to be stuck in my head for the next year. Everything about this song is sensational...The lyrics, the tune, and the beat. 

And I went tumbling down trying to reach your high
But I scream too loud if I speak my mind

Track 16- Hopeless ft. Cashmere Cat
This one also gives me chills. It has such a melancholic feeling to it, and it just beautifuly represents the sorrowful fate of lovers. The background vocals really add so much to this song and really help convey it's despondent mood. 

And so I must be better than I think it is
Give me those eyes, it's easy to forgive

If you haven't listened to hopeless fountain kingdom, I hope that you do soon, because it really is such an amazing album. If you have listened to it, what's your favorite song on the album? Tell me in the comments!