3.04.2017

A Poem: Clay



you're the gifted sculptor
and he is your prized masterpiece
and you mold him like
you would clay
into the shape of your choosing

you shape away his faults
those little nicks and dents and quirks
that you think mar his face
and you leave what you think is beauty
in their place

it's hard for him to even care to dream
when his desires
are picked away
left to fall to the ground
remnants of aspirations and hope

but you try not to mind how he feels
because you know it's for the better
and you know that one day
he will be your pride and joy
and he will be admired by everyone

you ignore that his smile
grows a little smaller
with each passing day
and how he seems to wilt into himself
like a dying flower

one day your masterpiece is completed
the clay has hardened
and it stands
golden and bright
under the sun

you admire him
and invite everyone
you know
to come and see
what you have created

but your smiling face
soon turns uneasy
when you notice the droplets
of salty water
in his eyes 

and soon you are wailing
because at the touch of your hand 
on the cold statue
it shatters in front of everyone
breaking into a thousand little pieces


-Jollygirl


2.19.2017

Guest Post By Jeani: The Mountain

Hey, everyone! Today I have Jeani doing a guest post. If you haven't already, I highly recommend that you check out her blog. She posts really beautiful, amazing poems, and really thought provoking discussions. Anyway, on to Jeani's post!

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Hello! My name is Jeani and I’m from the blog Jeani Thoughts. I am very excited to be posting on “Reflections of a Jolly Girl” today! I hope you enjoy my poem! 

The Mountain
She stretched across the northern land
Water cascading from her mouth
Blue flowers sprung up from her roots
She was still as winter howled

Her strong arms sheltered rabbits
As they huddled to her breast
She cried for summer’s ending
For her friends would soon be dead

She shied away from cameras
As the bright lights hurt her eyes
They wore away her edges
They scraped their feet against her sides

If you lay still, you’ll hear her cry
Carried on the northern breeze
Then you’ll drink your cup of coffee
Carry on like you haven’t seen

Her cracked and crumbling body
Is hidden by the morning glow
And you only count the flowers
That she worked so hard to grow

She has supported your every move
But all you do is let her break
So, I’m saying on her behalf
Please don’t wait till morning wakes

// Jeani

2.11.2017

A Poem: My Name Is Courage


i remember one of the first times i came to you
when i whispered softly in your ear
urging you to face
the monsters under your bed
that you were so afraid of

we met again on your first day of school
when you faltered
at the school door
and i murmured encouraging words to you
and led you forward

i saw you on the day 
that you stood up to the boy
who had been tormenting you for months
as you vehemenlty told him off
while i cheered for you on your side

i was there when you left home
off to get a job,
start a family,
and you were so nervous and uncertain
and i held your hand as you walked out

when you had that big test, 
when you tried out for the school play even though you had immense stage fright,
when you had your first heartbreak,
when you lost someone that you loved,
i was there those times, too

when you accepted that you had messed up,
when you spoke up for your imaginative dreams,
when you apologized,
when you found the strength to completely be yourself,
i was there, right next to you

you see,
i've been here all these years,
standing right beside you when you needed me,
helping you get through all those things that seemed so impossible,
through all those times that you thought you couldn't make it one more day

and i've been right here all this time,
inside you,
a part of you,
and i have watched you grow,
grow and grow and grow into the person you are today

and it has been years since the first time we met,
your hair is gray,
your face lined with wrinkles,
but your smile is still the one of the boy
that i helped face the monsters under his bed

now i am here with you 
to help you through this last moment
before you pass on
sitting beside you
until the end

you couldn't see me before
but in this last moment
i suddenly become 
clear to you
and your last words are to me

your eyes widen 
as you take sight of me
standing above your bed,
ethereal hues of light
surrounding us

"it's you," you say, 
"who are you?"
i reply honestly, 
"i am you and you are me" i say
your eyes widen, "but what's your name?"

"my name is courage" i say
and you give me a weak smile
as the last signs of
life
flicker out of your eyes


-Jollygirl

1.21.2017

Pieces of Advice





1. 

know that you made mistakes in the past, and know that you'll make more in the future.
mistakes are inevitable, cringe worthy instances are un-avoidable.

so accept your mistakes and learn from them, but don't dwell on them.

2.

learn something new every day.
whether it be about the world, a friend, or yourself, learn something. 

3.

make time for yourself to just enjoy life.
do whatever you want to do whether that be reading a book, or dancing around crazily in your room.

4.

don't worry about what others think.

embrace your peculiarities.

and never let your fear of what others are thinking stifle your personality.

5.

spend time with the people you love. 



-Jollygirl


1.14.2017

The Disney Book Tag

Hey, everyone! I stumbled upon The Disney Book Tag on youtube, and I really liked it! I think it's such a fun tag, and I really wanted to do it! 

 1. The Little Mermaid - a character who is out of their element, a “fish out of water”


I think that Tessa Gray from The Infernal Devices Series (by Cassandra Clare) was really out of her element, at least at first. In Clockwork Angel, she travels from New York to London in order to find her brother. Instead, she gets thrown into a crazy world, filled with demons, demon hunters, warlocks, vampires, werewolves, faeries, etc. The customs and traditions of all the people she meets are also very different from her own, and the ones accepted in New York. It was clear that she was confused and startled, obviously "out of her element."




2. Cinderella - a character who goes through a major transformation


Celaena Sardothien changes and grows so much over the course of the Throne of Glass series (by Sarah J. Maas.) In the first few books of the series, she's impulsive, somewhat immature, and  irresponsible.  However, she eventually grows and matures into an amazing leader. 


3. Snow White - a book with an eclectic cast of characters


Lady Midnight (by Cassandra Clare) has so many different characters and each one is unique in their own way. They all have their own quirks, and storylines. I just love the emphasis on family in Lady Midnight and how the personality of each member of the Blackthorns is really fleshed out. Another thing I love about Lady Midnight (and in other books by Cassandra Clare) is how the author includes diverse characters in all of her books. 


4. Sleeping Beauty - a book that put you to sleep


The Graceling by Kristin Cashore was just really boring. Towards the middle/end of the book, nothing seemed to be happening. The characters didn't save the boring plot for me either as I wasn't a huge fan of the main character. I ended up not finishing this book.


5. The Lion King - a character who had something traumatic happen to them in childhood


Something traumatic has happened to the main characters in almost every YA book! I'm choosing the obvious choice though, which would be Harry Potter. We can all agree that Harry Potter didn't have the best early childhood because his parents died and he was forced to live with his aunt and uncle in the closet under the stairs. Harry Potter probably isn't the most "original" answer for this question, but since the Harry Potter franchise means a lot to me, I'm choosing him. 


6. Beauty and the Beast - A beast of a book (a big book) that you were intimidated by, but found the story to be beautiful

I was really intimidated by all of Cassandra Clare's books. It just seemed like there were so many, and I had no idea where to start. When I eventually read them though, I completely loved them. I know that a lot of people are intimidated by the amount and size of her books, but I would really recommend reading them. They're completely worth it. If you're unsure about what order to read them in, I'd recommend reading them in publication order: City of Bones, City of Ashes, City of Glass, Clockwork Angel, City of Fallen Angels, Clockwork Prince, City of Lost Souls, Clockwork Princess, City of Heavenly Fire, Tales From Shadowhunter Academy, Lady Midnight. 


7. Mulan - a character who pretends to be someone or something they are not


For this one, I choosing Alex, from Made You Up by Francesca Zappia. Alex doesn't exactly pretend to be someone she's not, but she does hide things about herself (like her schizophrenia  from other people. 



8. Toy Story - a book with characters you wish would come to life


I would love for the characters in The Lunar Chronicles (by Marissa Meyer) to come to life. I just love all the characters. Each of their personalities are so unique, and together, they form such a dynamic group! 


I hope that you enjoyed reading that post! Have a great week!

-Jollygirl

12.31.2016

2016 Recap

Wow, 2016 is over already. 

2016 is being viewed as a terrible year by so many people, and while I do agree that I wasn't a huge fan of some of the things that happened this year, I think 2016 was still a pretty good year. So many things have happened in 2016, and I think that we're focusing on the negatives things that happened instead of the positive ones. What I'm basically trying to say is that even though 2016 had its downs, it also had so many ups, and I personally had a good year. 


So, on to the recap:



Bookish Things

number of books read: I read 159 books this year. However, I'll probably finish off another book today, making the number of books I read 160. 

shortest book: The shortest book I read this year wasn't even a book, it was actually a short story called "The Crown and the Arrow" by Renne Ahdieh. It's 9 pages long.

longest book: Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (870 pages long)

number of pages read: 62,699 pages 

average page length of books: 394 pages

average rating for 2016: 4.1 stars out of five

Favorite Books of the Year

 
Wow, it was really hard to pick out my favorites of the year, but these books are what I came up with. There are other books that I read this year that I loved as much as I loved the books that I'm displaying here as my favorites, but since I didn't want this section to be too long, I'm only showing four of them. 

Under Appreciated Books

   

These are some books that not many people seem to know about. I read all three of these books this year and really liked all of them and I think that more people should read them. 
SO PLEASE READ THESE, EVERYONE!

Disappointments


These are some books that I went into with high expectations, but ended up disappointed. 


Overall this year, I read a lot of amazing books!

Blogging

Counting this one, I only published 19 posts this year, which is definitely not a lot. Next year I'll try to publish more posts. 

I love the blogging community, and I love writing posts. And though I wasn't very active on my blog this year, I still had a lot of fun reading other's blog posts, writing posts, interacting with bloggers, etc. 

Life

-As I think about what I've done this year, I'm realizing that I went on a lot of fun vacations this year! 
  •  I went to Orlando to visit "Diagon Alley" and "Hogsmeade" which was really fun, especially because my family loves Harry Potter!
  • I went to Hawaii and wrote a blog post about it
  • I went to Niagara falls (and it was beautiful)
  • I went to Montreal (which was really interesting and fun)
  • I went to Washington D.C (which is great because it's such a pretty area and there are so many interesting museums and monuments)
-We moved!
-I bought a lot of books
-I basically lazed around the house most of summer, reading books and watching TV
-New bookshelves!!
-Appreciating the genius that is Lin Manuel Miranda and listening to the Hamilton soundtrack over and over again (and also reading the book)            
-Attempting to watch Lost
-I listened to:
  • TWENTY ØNE PILØTS (Tyler and Josh have amazing personalities, and also write really amazing lyrics)
  • Panic! at the Disco (Brendon's vocal range is amazing and I love his album, "Death of a Bachelor." However, I do prefer the albums that were made when the entire band was still together. I just love the long song titles in their first album and their confusing but beautiful lyrics. And I feel like "Pretty. Odd." is such an under appreciated album and I think it deserves so much more recognition. Also, all of Ryan Ross's lyrics that he wrote in "Pretty. Odd" are amazing.)
  • My Chemical Romance (I only just started listening to MCR, but from what I've heard so far, I really like their music.)
  • And a bunch of other artists

Goals/Resolutions

  1. PUBLISH MORE POSTS ON THIS BLOG.
  2. Write more.
  3. Try not to stress out over things that don't need to be worried about. 

Anyway, I guess that's it! I hope that you've had a good year, and that 2017 is a great year for you! 

12.24.2016

a poem: save you

the school halls
that usually echoed with our laughter
seem empty without you.

and as i walk through them
I'm met with
sallow faces,
tears.

i'm usually invisible in these halls,
always invisible next to you,
but today everyone sees me
because i was your best friend,
the best friend of the luminous girl
who is now dead.

"it should have been you,"
someone cruelly remarks.
he point to my face accusingly,
"you're not crying, you don't even look sad,
what's wrong with you?"

i contemplate his statement.

maybe there is something wrong with me
and maybe i should be feeling sad
and maybe i should be remembering you.

but i just want to forget.

forget your brown doe eyes,
forget your brilliant smile,
forget your laugh,
forget that you hung yourself in your bedroom closet 3:00 A.M yesterday morning,
and forget that maybe i could have helped you,
that maybe i could have prevented your death,
that maybe we could have had years and years more together.

but then i feel angry,
because what could i have actually done
without you telling me what was going on with you?

why didn't you confide in me?
WHY?

i could have helped you!
i would have been there for you!

should i have noticed something was up
without you telling me?
is that what i was supposed to do?

i don't understand.

am i a bad person for not noticing?
should i have noticed?
you wanted me to notice, right?

what about my rage, my thoughts?

am i a bad person for feeling angry,
for feeling confused?

i don't know.

all i know is what i see as i roam the school halls,
anger as he punches his locker,
sadness as she cries in the courtyard,
guilt as he fidgets around,
biting his fingernails,
tears welling in his eyes.

and i know that you weren't okay.

and i know that we all wonder what we could have done to save you.

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So, that was just a poem that I wrote that I wanted to share. (The inspiration for the poem came from some different books/television shows.)
I hope that you are all enjoying the holidays :-)
Merry Christmas!



12.03.2016

Goodbye November, Hello December

Hey, everyone!

This is actually the first "recap" type post that I've ever done! So, I'm really excited to write it! 

I know that November was a really busy month for a lot of people in the blogging community, especially because of NaNoWriMo. I've never done it, but I do know that writing a huge amount of words in 30 days takes a lot of hard work, time, and determination. So if you participated in NaNoWriMo, I applaud you and I also think that you should be really proud of yourself for doing it! 

We also celebrated Thanksgiving in November. On Thanksgiving, we think about all the things that we are grateful for, which I think is wonderful, as there are so many little things that we take for granted. I think that we should all try to be thankful the entire year, though. 

Also, on Thanksgiving, we all ate lots of delicious food:


And now, it's December.  I really love December, mostly because of how happy and joyful everyone is around this time of year. And I'm looking forward to what will hopefully be a great month. 
  

Life

- I've been listening to all the Pentatonix Christmas albums lately. I love the way that they put a unique spin on traditional Christmas songs. If you've never heard any songs/covers by Pentatonix, I highly recommend that you give them a listen. 

-We bought a box of these Pepperidge Farm cookies from the grocery store, and they are so delicious! It's basically a mix of a bunch of different type of cookies/biscuits which is amazing because COOKIES ARE LIFE.

-WE MOVED. Yup. Basically my family moved in early November. Our new house is only about five minutes away from our old house, which definitely simplified the "moving process" a lot. We've also been buying some new furniture for the new house. Currently, as I am writing this, my family is debating over which carpet to put in the family too. 

-During Black Friday Shopping, I saw the cutest thing in one store. Behold:

-I watched Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them a while ago and it was amazing! There's apparently going to be five movies featuring the characters in FBAWTFT which is great. I'm so excited!!!


^^My favorite creature in the movie

-On Black Friday, my family bought seasons 6 and 7 of Modern Family, which I'm really happy about, as it's one of my favorite shows!

-I also recently watched the Gilmore Girls revival. I enjoyed seeing the characters again, and the banter between Lorelei, Rory, and Luke, but I'm not sure how I feel about how it ended .

-Hamilton. I'm currently listening to "Washington on Your Side" right now. 


Around the Blogosphere

-Morning is creating a blogger yearbook! I think it's a really cool idea, and I'm excited to see how it turns out! To learn more about the yearbook, and to be in it, click here!

-I really loved reading Grace's  Thankfulness Thursday  posts throughout the month of November. They were so fun to read, and they really reminded me of all the things I have to be thankful for!

-Oakstar wrote a really beautiful poem that you should definitely read (click here to see it!)

-Elizabeth  shared her recommended classics (which is great, because I've been looking for more classics to read since I read To Kill A Mockingbird)


-Cait  made me laugh and feel a lot better about all my accidents with books with her post, "The Worst And Most Horrific Things I've Ever Accidentally Done To A Book."



Bookish Things

-I basically used Black Friday as an excuse to buy more books. I bought Heartless by Marissa Meyer (I finished reading it a week ago, it was amazing), Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets Illustrated  Edition (the illustrations are beautiful), and The Mortal Instruments series (awesomeness.) I actually read The Mortal Instruments series a few months ago (May/June 2016) but I wanted to own actual copies of it. 

This is not my picture, it's actually from Amazon, but don't the spines of the paperback Mortal Instruments series look really cool?



-Best Book of the Month- It's hard to pick between Heartless by Marissa Meyer and Highly Illogical Behavior by John Corey Whaley, especially because they're such different books. They were both the only books that I rated 5/5 stars this month.

-Looking Forward to Reading- I'm really looking forward to reading the entire Naturals series by Jennifer Lynn Barnes. Somebody I know recommended the series to me, so I tried out the first book last week, and liked it. It wasn't amazing, but it was very interesting and entertaining, and I'm eager to know what will happen with the characters in the series (which is why it's good that I have the second, third, and fourth book of the series from the library.) 

-Also, if any of you would like to add me as a friend on goodreads (which would be amazing, as I love seeing what other people are reading), click here to get to my profile. 

Things That I'm Looking Forward to in December

-Having a break from school 
This is me!


-Holiday Cheer
-Beautiful lights and decorations
-Holiday Specials on TV
-Christmas Movies
-Having fun with family and friends
-Reading lots of good books
-Seasonal Flavors (Starbucks)


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I hope that you enjoyed that! I had fun writing it :-)
Have a great weekend, and a great December, too!



11.26.2016

a poem: until we didn't


we drank sweet lemonade,
sugary juice dripping down our chins
       
       we picked dandelions together on the playground,
       clutching as many as we could in our hands
                      
               we laughed as we did cartwheels on the field,
                ignoring the suspiciously odd smelling grass
                        
                     we passed secret notes to each other,
                     with silly messages on them

                           we chattered excitedly about different books,
                           perching on the fence that we weren't allowed to sit on because of "safety reasons"

                                 we gave each other homemade cards for our birthdays,
                                 with sweet messages written on them
                                       
                                     we made up ridiculous games,
                                     teasing each other as we played them
  
                                           we hunted for four leaf clovers,
                                           searching through the grass with focus and concentration
                                          
                                           we were a group of close friends,
                                           and we had so much fun together
                                      
                                      we were a group of friends and we had so much fun together,
                                      until we didn't 
                                     
                                      until our days of teasing and long conversations,
                                      came to an end

                                 and it's been so long now, 
                                 so long since those memories of laughter and sticky chins

                         we've changed,
                         grown apart

                  what used to be long conversations are now only an awkward "hello, how are you?",
                  that we say every time we see each other (mostly out of obligation)
  
       what used to be incessant chatting is now a short text,
       sent a couple times a year

what used to be a close friendship,
is now not even a friendship at all

and it's too bad,
how some friendships dissolve as time goes by

      and it's sad, how a friendship can exist in one moment,
      and then cease to be in another

             and maybe i sometimes miss them, my old friends,
             but that's okay
   
                   because even though we're not friends anymore,
                   i still have all the memories of our adventures and experiences

                       memories of experiences 
                       that have molded me into the person i am today
                   
                              and my old friends still mean something to me,
                              and i know that they're an important part of my story, my life
                                    
                                     and knowing that,
                                     is enough for me
     


         
                 -Jollygirl